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One night I was channel surfing after a day at Disneyland and settled on a bio of the old Mama’s and the Papa’s musical group. It was an interesting and entertaining story of sex, drugs and 60’s culture. It was followed by an interview with Mackenzie Phillips, the daughter of (Papa) John Phillips. This was an Aha! moment for me.
Mackenzie is a 49 year old recovering heroin addict who recently wrote a book about her life entitled “High on Arrival” She spent 10 years clean and sober and then re-lapsed when her dad passed away. I haven’t read her book yet but it’s on my list now.
The aha! moment I had was about her statement of how she got over her re-lapse. Its now big news that she came out on Oprah that she and her dad had, not only done drugs together, but had an incestual relationship. This was the key to her need to escape back into drugs. She had never dealt with this. “ I had never forgiven him for what he did. As soon as I did it was like a key that unlocked the door of my peace”
As Christians we are familiar with forgiveness, at least our own. God loves us and forgives us no matter what. This is the lead we need to take as addicts. Forgiveness of others. This is one of the keys to our sobriety.
When we get to
Step 4: We made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.
Step 4 is where we face our past; we take inventory of, The Good, The Bad, and the Ugly
“Happy are the pure in heart.” (Matthew 5:8)
This should include every event in our life NO MATTER WHAT our peace depends on it
STEVE
2 comments:
I am a new Christian and a new member of the TCF family. I am struggling in the area of forgiveness. I do not want to come to the lord to fix my mistakes. It just didn't seem fair that I ruined my life with drugs and bad choices and I could just be forgiven that easily.
I've been off drugs for almost a year. I have rebuilt relationships with my family and friends and now I am working to build my relationship with God.
If you have time to read about my story, please visit http://www.runningfromaddiction.com
The 4th Step caused me to consider the past & what decisions from that past altered my future in ways that continue to hurt me. It said I needed to make a fearless & moral inventory of myself. First of all, at this time in my life & after all I'd seen & gone through, I was anything but fearless. I truly did not understand how I was supposed to admit who I was & what I did without fear. The majority of that junk was so awful & I had yet to find even one human being that I trusted to confess it to. It alone seemed impossible and it was only half of what needed to be done. Then, I was asked to create a document that was fair, honest, & detailed about my past. Quite overwhelming. I acquired a sponsor who helped me through this process. The patterns that were uncovered during this process showed me how to begin to change my future in ways I could be proud of. MOST IMPORTANTLY: I learned about trusting God's guidance in my life. I'm working onThe 4th Step again with TCF's Women's Step Study. Join us. God bless.
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